Prayer 11-8-2012

Dear our Father in Heaven,
Please forgive my sin, my transgressions
That although I know you want me to be a good girl,
I am trying to, I didn't do it well today.
I only knew how to complain
But didn't be grateful.
I only a normal self- centered person but didn't be a God-centered person.
Everything I only think of he didn't do well, he didn't love me, he didn't help me, he didn't set a good example, he only knew watching tv, he only played iPod and didn't want to chat or have a minute with me.
I am upset
I am sad
I am depressed
As I think I'm alone
I'm too alone to work as a pastor, no one understands
But only work
I don't like to work and meeting
I want to have time with God, with the ones who love God, obey God
I want to teach those who are faithful, available and teachable.
I don't like to do ministry
But I like to do the works of God, by being a servant of God, not a leader of God.
Only by praying, I can understand the will of God,
Only by reading the Bible, I can understand the wisdom of God,
Only by obeying and waiting, I can understand I am living by faith and truth.
Our Heavenly Father,
Please help me
Please don't leave me alone.
I don't want to judge others include my husband.
You are the judge.
I just want to be the one who pleases You.
If I don't become a person perfect like Jesus, I know I'll not be with You at the end of the day.
I know all I do must glorify Your Name.
So I believe
My regret,
My change to God-centered,
Kindness, and humble
Will only glorify Your Name.
Please, Holy Spirit, fills up me so that I have strength and power, not by myself, but with the power of God.
I surrender myself once again.
Take away my pride,
Accept my weakness,
Forgive my transgressions
And
Wipes away my tears
And anger,
I do not want to have anger with me
But the joyfulness of Your love and kindness.
Thank you for a new amazing love from You, my Lord.
That's so wonderful
That nothing compare with it.
I want to be good
As You're so great!
Great be my God!
Amen